So looking at the last post date.. 2006/6/8.

Amazing , it's been such a long time since I stop comming to this place. well maybe I really had become an anti-social... funny. but yea here is something for myself just trying to get some stuff straight....

Try to get ur life back on track baby! A man cant go down just like that... 27 you still have a long road ahead of you. You already fell behind. 27 should be a age deciding which house to buy and thinking about having baby or something very very productive. Go back to your friends, the ones that haven't heard from you for ages. By the time you get urself stuff up, life will be great again! AND STOP FKING URSELF OVER IN VIDEO GAMES IT"S NOT FREAKING WORTH IT. GET OVER IT. YOUR COMPANY IS GONE. YOU NEED A VISA TO STAY HERE, AND IT AINT GONNA JUST COME LIKE THAT. failing interviews is nothing! senior owned your face, so what? econ is bad, learn to live with it. you are a grown up now, 3 years from now, if nothing changed, it's probably a never. 10 years after I will see you sleeping on the street or living a life the way you want it, it's your own call. your teenage years were way over, all the shit happened in the past passed. no if, no but, no should've. it's all dead, so wake the fuck up!

let's do it. I am not gonna be like a loser. I am not born to be one, and I am way to smart to be one. cant be lazy, cant be afraid of bullshits, cant just sit here and wait for shit to happen... gotta make stuff happen. I wasn't like this before, I cant be like this anymore... straight it up... i've been through more shiats back then... now I cant quit like this... 10 years in state isnt a joke, I spent almost 1/3 of my life here... no wai I could last these long if I was a puss like now. so yea... let's do it....